Just one quick phone call and my entire week’s schedule unexpectedly, miraculously, and graciously cleared. Upon hanging up, the very first thought that went through my mind was, “Ahhhhhh, writing.”
Truth-be-told (and despite what you are about to witness below), I have made significant progress. But not without struggle. My mind is wont to respond to nearly any glimmer of resistance, any shiny object, any distraction it can possibly find. And this is demonstrated clearly (and embarrassingly) in the following two videos.
The first – only 33 seconds long, but revealing far more:
And the second, filmed only moments later; another 27 seconds that speak volumes:
“Insane,” is right. I’m not proud – either of the fact that I filmed these while driving or that they blatantly demonstrate my less-than-sophisticated-but-endless stalling techniques. Still, here they are.
And still, here am I: Distracted. Impassioned. Committed. Flighty. Determined. Insecure. Prolific. Stuck. Compelled.
Still and always, a writer.
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I love how you turned your procrastination of writing into a blog post. You shared the truth. Something very few people would have the courage to do. Very inspirational!
Nora Whalen recently posted..I Want To Be Part of the We
One could say, Nora, that even the blog post was a distraction; but…it amused me and gave me permission to NOT take myself so seriously. Thank you for your kind words.
luv.it.
. I do all the above but today realize its a kooky part of my creative cycle. Of course if one never moves beyond the trip for the much needed treat or suddenly needing to straighten a closet
in my book not sure if it’s ‘not writing’ or needing to pepper the day with getting out into the world & yes, we need connections too even fb
then for sure a problem. I think we are bit like dogs that bless the spot where they will ultimately sit by walking in circles first, then confidently nesting. Enjoy that soda+chocolate. & Then.write.b/c u always do. x0
p.s. I count the videos as visual writing.
Yes, Callahan, these things: getting out into the world, connections, FB, soda, and chocolate. All part of the creative cycle, to be sure. And all good stories to tell when I’m finally turning the pages of what I will one day see in print, yes? xoxo
*laughs* Ronna…I LOVE you. In so many ways! Of course, it’s because I can relate!
And I had two conversations this past couple of days (well, there were actually more, but two that I want to relate) from two particular class participants “TSMs”. The conversations went something like this:
TSM: “You really remind me of someone.”
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Me: “I do?”
TSM: “Yep. I met her about a year ago. Your mannerisms. Your style. Even your facial expressions.”
Me: “Really? And I thought there was only one of me.”
TSM: “No, I don’t mean that. You were also kinda different.” (I’m not sure “kinda ‘different’” was actually a compliment.
Me: “Tell me more.”
TSM: “Anyway, you remind me of this woman named Ronna…a LOT. You are both into reality and telling it like it is. Do you know her?”
Me: “Yep! I taught her everything she knows. I’m older.”
Truth-telling. Compassionate. Insane.
I am honored/blessed/fortunate/lucky to be seen as someone that reminds others of someone I hold in such high regard.
Thank you for making me laugh with today’s posts. And for reminding me to get to writing.
Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow!
Coral recently posted..Passion and Purpose Revisited
Two conversations like this? Funny. And affirming, to be sure. Thank you for passing such encouragement my way. And…if any of what I’ve said/done encourages you? Well, then I have done good work, my friend. xoxo Yes Coral, write.
LOVE listening to this – bet if you asked all of us what ours are; you’d have months of posts, several chapters and a heck of a laugh fest with us!
Cindi recently posted..You Can
I’m sure you’re right, Cindi. Mine alone would be shelves and shelves.
So, so true. And yes. And me, too. And hurray! And whenwillIstopcommentingonotherpeoplesblogsandjustwrite?!?
Thank you for the honesty and the permission and the space to work through my own resistance as well.
Much love from one writer-spiritual director to another,
Tara
Love that you’re here, Tara – and that clearly, you get it. In solidarity as we stall…
I’m so jealous that you can procrastinate by driving to a 7-Eleven for a diet coke and chocolate.
I don’t have that “outlet” nearby…but I did enjoy procrastinating my writing by vicariously living through you. WHERE are we going next???? It’s so much more fun to travel when you’re not alone.
Believe me, Tracey, 7-11 was just the distraction du jour. There are many more. Starbucks. My kitchen. Doing laundry. Organizing a closet. And then there’s FB, Twitter, and constant copy-editing on my site…
This post made me smile
Thanks for being real and sharing this… I love it and am encouraged!
Mel recently posted..You are what you eat
The smile and the encouragement made my procrastination worhtwhile, Mel.